wedding, dream,....

My bestest fren got married last week... n am thankful n grateful for being able to stand by her side during her most meaningful day.... i not only became her bridesmaid but also her witness... jg org penting jg.... Am really happy for her.... n i did m'eluarkan few titisan air mata... air mata kegembiraan... luckily my other bestfren was wit me that time... actually masa rehersal lg pun me oredi control2 m'alirkan air mata.... thank God everything went well....
change topic... my midterm will begin in another week... n i am truly not ready for it... we did try doing d speed for shorthand juz now, n me, aduiiii ulat bulu btl me ohhh, ketinggalan kpl terbang... e2 br yg 60psm n i should pass d 100psm.... me really worry ohhh.... kaylah gotta go... mo review firstlah....

Worrying bout d future means preparing and planning earlier.... :p

part of my life.... (really cant think bout a suitable title rite now)

Can't remember exactly when was d last time i blogged here... seems it was few months ago... It's May already... n in less than a month, mybestestfren, myangel, mysista will get married... am so happy for her, but i know i have to prepare my mental especially wit soalan2 bonus yg i might receive on her special day....

Talking bout my course, its already May n in about a month we will be having Midterm, then in about 7 more months, will have final exam... Honestly juz wan to get over wit it, cant wait for d time when i dun need to worry bout staying up late doing assignments and preparing for the d test, waking up early so wont be stuck with d traffic jammed, buttttt at d same time, wishing that time wont move so fast, i'm totally unprepared for d exam yet, especially for trengkas n shorthand... aduiii... dunno how am i going to b able to write 60 n moreover 80 words per minute??? skarang pun it takes several minutes just to write one word... aiyaaaa.... need to really struggle hard... but seems that 'd memory card on my brain' need to b upgraded kali ni... today one of our lecturer couldn't come for d afternoon class, so d samping menyiapkan trengkas asign, my coursemates n i bcerita bout a lot of thing.... mula2 crita hantu then dunno end up bout kerabat d raja n funny stories... we had a good laugh... n truly can't remember when was d last time i really had that great time since taking this course, mcm semua kestressan pun ilang daa... if lah ari2 dpt ketawa like that....

planning to jmpa my kawan2 opis tomorrow, arap2 no aral melintang lah... havent jmpa them since i started this course bah.... selalu2 suda we all buat apointment but tertunda ja... really looking forward of jumpaing n lepaking wit them tomorrow... ;)

kaylah seems that story to be continue again.... needs to mandi, masaks n buat asingmentsss lagi... :)... yahoo its Friday tomorrow... cuti 2 hari lagi... :p

oRienTatioN Week

i am officially an INSAN 'student' starting last Monday until d end of dis year.... For this week, we only had orientation n what we dis were....

DAY 1

Arrived around 7 sth... had bfast... started d orientation around 9 sth, with 'ice breakers'.. then we had our tea break.... after that was asked to draw our own face... atukkk oiii, ni lah subjek yg paling lemah.... my lukisan teda pun semacam my own face eventhough tried my best to copy my muka d driving license... kalau kana bagi markah mmg fail abis tu... pas tu, d lukisan kena kc campur aduk then randomly given to each student: - need to find d owner of d 'face'... its quiet easy cuz kami 7 orang ja gia.... pas jmpa d owner we interview them... After lunch, smbung blk n present wat we got from d interview... finished around 4pm, minum petang then balik... Went to Library wit my sis, then p window shoping d CP... have to cari kasut bertutup... aduiii, semua my kasut yg 'terbuka' bah... as wat my sayang said... yg x cukup kain punya... but mmg i love that kind of shoes/sandal veri much... p memandangkan d larang utk memakainya, tpaksalah aku mengorbankan wang ringgit membeli kasut baru... e2pun susa sgt mo cari... teda yg masuk dlm hati bah... we went to Warisan Square, pusing2 der n end up terbeli blouse pula.. Back to CP nasib jmpa jg d BATA... well, actually, i've been wishing to buy that kind of shoes since last year, p everytime sa p BATA teda ja size yg ngam... nasib baik jg masa i went dat day ada size yg ngam... e2pun last stok suda.. pa lagi beli terus... Oh yaa forgot pula, we were given a room, 2 people in a room, so after lunch pa lagi, masuk bilik n zzzzzzz

DAY 2

Datang cam besa, bfast n mula... with pengenalan of INSAN n perlantikan penghulu n Tim. Penghulu sementara... if govt punya course ndak kiralah jangka panjang or jangka pendek mesti ada pelantikan penghulu... after tea break, we had a program which called 'Time Machine".. its sth about sharing sth about d past.... to know each other closer lah konon kiranya... after lunch pun we did d same.... balik earlier than yesterday... me p opis lagi lah... mo kc siap 'filing' daa.. p even blk around 7 suda pun x jg pandai siap2.... wat to do lah...

DAY 3

Outdoor activities, went to Taman Tun Fuad.. we had 'treasure hunt' and group presentation..oh yaa yg kemarin dia we kana bagi to 2 groups bah... my group presented short skit bout 2 secretaries, bad n good one..n me end up wit d bad secretary... actuali at first kana suru jadi yg good punya p i prefer jadi bad secretary... senang sikit mo d lakonkan... before blk kampus we makan ABC beramai-ramai.... oh yaa lupa pula, kami ada games lagi... i 'discover' new game dat i never know before...

After lunch, minta permission 2 blk awal... ada urusan seri paduka baginda bah...

DAY 4

Gotong royong.... supposed to be on Day 5 but di awalkan utk persediaan penutupan dii... we membersihkan sekeliling kampus.... n mmg penat yg teramat sgt... lama x kerja keras bah... bl smpi ms kc bersi bilik, me n my roomate, end up ter zzzz until lunch time... after lunch, rehat kijap then balik rumah.... smpi rumah... landing terusss....

DAY 5

Today we sepatutnya ada acara penutupan, but since d pengarah cuti, we only d berikan buku2 yg d perlukan... n i think todaylah yg terlebih makan punya... we had our tea break at 10 sth... then around 11 trus lunch... makan saja.... pas dat... blk... d berikan masa actually utk mencari barang2 keperluan, n at first me wan to p singgah salon daa, p malas, blk rumah terus dii...


This week, mcm relax btl, byk masa mo p opis daa, but camana mo p kalau ari2 penat sgt... to be honest mmg x senang my ati cuz d kerja x yet siap d opis, p mo p pun no guna kalau 'panat' yg teramat sgt....

Aduiiii, laparnya me dis.... awal sgt lunch kan tadi... bah mo cari makan dulu lah...

Have a blessed Sabbath... mo blk kg ni nanti.... daaa ;)

Ma VaLentInEs....

It was 'another' valentine's day yesterday... but for me i prefer that everyday is a valentine... so i celebrate valentine everyday, showing my love to my love one every single day or if possible every single second of my life...





Can't remember exactly if did 'celebrate' valentine before... maybe once or twice, when i was in high school or college... When i was in high school, on February if i am not mistaken, cuz its been berkurun lama dahulu..., for those who stayed in d dorm, we had a program which called 'secret penpal' n d penghujung usually on Valentine... In my last year of high school, i was 'incharged'of that program since my kawan who suppose incharge kena chicken pox... Its a custom for both of the social leader from girls n boys dormitory to give 'pen' name for the penghuni asrama... n the leader shouldn't follow it, but it was 'emergency' so i terfollow jg... I was really shocked when d other leader gave me d lists of nama2 yg d cabut oleh boys, my name was picked by my 'bestest fren',... n according to d leader, he was d last one 2 pickd up a name... i have to pretend i dun know ath when i was with him... he wrote those letter in front of me, n he even read d letter to me when he received one... aduiii, honestly its so hard to control n not telling him that it was me, his penfren dat time... we were classmates, n juz imagine i was with him al d time, without him having single idea it was me... i asked him bout his 'gf' n 2 my surprised, he replied n telling me, d penfren, everything bout me... aduiii... buat me segan ja wit him... n yg paling teruk, when he asked me to buy gift for his penfren... adakah me wan to buy hadiah for myself... i asked him to buy it sendiri, nanti bikin malu ja beli hadiah sendiri... He was surprised to find out it was me at d end... especially when i ejek2 him bout his 'letter'... its kinda of funny... we do end up being a couple after that, but when i further my studies, i told him that we better stayed bestfren... he's special.... i've known him since we 'budak hingusan' lg.. i told him everything.... he's a great guy, n truly i appreciate all d times, memories that we spent together... When i decided to end our 'luv relationship'... i lost mybestfren... even now i still wish that we can be bestfren again, but i know it's impossible... i'm kinda grateful that he's still my fren... eventhough i truly miss our 'bestfren' time... well dat was cerita lama, but sumtimes when i teringat pasal highschool, surely i'll remember him jg, kenangan terindah lah katakan...

Now i'm grateful, thankful, really happy for my sayang... he's such a blessing to me... n i love him with my whole life... can't imagine mylife without him... eventhough often times we gaduh2 jg, but dats wat making our love n relationship stronger.... even though skarang we have to bjauhan lagi, d pisahkan ole lautan... p 'out of sight, fresh in mindkan...'...

well, i better kc siap my keja... 2moro will be starting a new 'chapter' in my life, as a student again... ;)

2nd last day of work...

It's my 2nd last day of work.... not dat i'm 'resigning' from my current work... but, as i said in my previous blog, am going or did i say 'maybe' will be taking d Secretarial Science Course... Well, went for d interview yesterday, n brabis jg konon mo ingat nama2 org penting... p bl kena tanya pula... rugi2 ja me have butterflies dlm stomach... the interviewee juz asked bout my background, simply to know me more lah... n before d interview we were given 'surat tawaran' so mmg confirm lah dpt... i'll b starting my course next week, on February 16 till Dec 31... aiyaa dunno if i can blog again after this.... maybe have to 'loan' my sis or brot punya laptop lah dis br dpt online n blog...

My gang karas treated me for lunch yesterday... makan pizza d CP... before that me n two of them mmg planning mo p makan pizza... n i didn't know that it was mainly for me until we finished eating, while paying d bills... aduiii terharunya hati ku... at first dey said its for my farewell but i said x mau klu farwell so it's a 'celebration' for me to jd student for about a year.... for sure i'll miss each one of them...

Am kinda of worry pl x siap my 'tugasan' b4 i leave.. n i have only 2 days left... n kalau terpigi on Sunday, have to work d whole day lah...p mmg have to come lah on Sunday.. if not, x senang my jiwa raga meninggalkan kerja2 ni...

well, gotta go... mo smbung keja lagi... :)

MoNDay mooD

It's monday, n as always... i am really 'lazy'... been working for several years already n still i juz malas wan to keja on monday.... My boss outstation today n our '2nd boss' cuti... me n my colleague tambah lagi memalaskan diri keja... actually keja byk bertimbun but we simply mhabiskan our time bercerita....

Yesterday, me n my sis n brot went to CP.... e2pun unplanned punya... my sandal 'nalangkab' bah on Friday so i end up wearing my 'Made in Malaysia, bought in Thailand' heels... punyalah skema me jln2 d CP with shortpants n heels.... smpi CP ja me terus cari selipar jepun... hahaha... feels much comfortable jalan2 wit selipar jepun... me can even lari2 with selipar jepun... klu pakal heels sure len lg control ayu, 'cramp' kaki pun ada kali... Then we had our dinner at Secret Recipe... tpaksa bah p sana... awal btl tutup cafe yg slalu km p... 'once in a blue moon' ja makan d Secret Recipe ni.... d food mmg 'expensive' punya but berbaloi lah cuz sedappp.... smpi rumah around 10pm uda, iron my baju then sleeping beauty...

Its around after 5pm now, but me still d opis, tpaksa mo kc siap keja... kalau2 jadi p kursus nanti susah lagi... nanti nama 'glamourku' jadi sebutan pula x myiapkan tugasan... lgpun have to wait for my sis jg bah... she abis klas around 6pm.... ngam2 konon me rajin jg daa...hahaha... 'curi tulang' lg dis....

better kc siap dulu lah dis... daaa to b continue

iNterview...woRks...

Received letter from INSAN, calling for interview which will be on d 11th dis month... then kalau lulus interview, on d 16th mula kelas oredi... aduii, mcm x sanggup pula me wan to go dis, especially bl dengar one of my colleague who went for it last year, 'full time' study... 8 to 5 everyday n cuti only masa public holiday...

Bout d interview... aiyaaa, kalau bole memang me mo avoid interview... ada interview phobia bah... skarang pun like mula oredi butterflies dancing in my stomach... risau abis... terpaksa lah mengreview n menghafal nama2 urang penting dis... sudalah me mmg yg 'short memory'... silap2 masa interview blank abis... Terremember pl me masa mula2 p interview utk cari keja... excited abis, smua sijil2 yg d copy abis, yg x penting pun d copy jg... skali tingu, jual 'saham'.. sayang my sijil2 jadi hiasan ja..., then my 2nd interview, at a preschool, trus dapat jg daa, p me yg x jodoh jd sigu n jaga anak, few months ja, trus me cari tempat len... ngam2 my kawan lama kestau ada kekosongan at her office, me go try test, few days later dpt pula... i like jg keja d sana daa, p lama2, bl kena suru handle keja yg i dunno, not my kepandaian, ari2 stress ja... nasib baik jg at d same time ada kawan kestau bos dia mo cari urg... actually dis kawan asked me if i know anyone who is willing to keja n especially rajin ambil minutes... me try jg to find urg lah p cam teda yg interested... so when me pun men2 lah konon tanya dis kawan kalau me yg antar resume camana... he said try saja who knows gia kan... i sent my resume, n x lama kena kestau to attend for d interview... at dat time i was in KL jalan2 makan angin... nasib baik jg can re arrange d jadual for interview... blk Sabah i went for d interview with a 'blank brain', dunno ath about d job, except nasib besa jg ambil minit masa d skolah2 dulu... , kena suru prepare karangan bout myself...antam ja bah... i x expect to be accepted cuz mcm i dunno ath bah dat time... skali x lama, my kawan kestau tu boss choose me to fill that post.... so here i am, working with xxx for about 3 years suda lah.... so far i love this job, cuz its kind of work that i 'dreamed' of before... keja d opis bah...

need to sambung my keja dulu.....

a New beGinning....

Totally forgotten that i have this blog until now when i 'register' for a new account daa.... It surprised me cuz i cant remember ever having this blog before... teruknya me dis, muda2 pelupa suda... Then bila me baca what i wrote about 2 years ago... aduiii.... punyalah teruk tu... really dunno what did i feel dat time, but i guess i was tersangat annoyed, irrated with 'someone' dat time...

Life is pretty much d same until now... its juz the number of my 'age' bertambah2 pula... besalah ni, getting older suda... my life still full of ups and downs, am still in relationship wit my one n only beloved, p terpaksa berjauhan yg teramat sgt lagi, still working at d same place; at least finally dpt confirmation also n at this moment, sedang menungu panggilan for the secretarial science course, klu jadi will be 'student' for about a year n after that senanglah mo dpt pengesahan jawatan... , am renting my aunt pnya 'apartment' wit my lil sis n brot, finally having my own 'baby' which is about 1 year old oredi, but bcuz of my 'baby' i have to korbankan my wangsss... no more 'shopping'... sedinya my heart.... nnnnn... mmm a lot more but to b updated soon lah...

well enough 'curi tulang' for today... hopefully will be more rajin blogging after this...